Most of you know the saying — “life is what happens when you’ve made other plans,” so what is what happens when you don’t?
If you ask me, it seems that things are always in flux. Nothing feels solid right now. It is like being stuck in a transporter beam and not being able to materialize again. No matter how low I set my expectations, I’m always a bit surprised at what happens around me.
Right now, I’m just waiting. Waiting for things to come and to pass. For life to settle down into a rhythm again so I can at least keep to a schedule. Teaching private classes is not without its issues: Students come up against life, too, and have to change their plans as well.
Learning what you can control.
My husband taught me long ago that there are only three things in life you can’t control:
And there you have it! Basically you can’t control anything, anywhere or anytime. Control is the great illusion of humanity, the one we most need to rid ourselves of.
In the meantime, those of us with “control issues” suffer greatly when our best laid plans are set asunder.
Today I am struggling a bit on accepting this fact of nature, of MY nature, that I cannot control everything. It is hard right now, when I have given up the semblance of normality I most relied on — my job. I don’t regret the decision; however, I feel a bit unmoored. Adrift. Frantically scanning the horizon for a glimpse of the new world.
I have some ideas — a new home near the beach, just enough private students to supplement my social security and pension income, getting outside in the air again. Simple things.
Let’s see what Life has to say about that.